Whoa its been a really long time since I have posted anything! Life has been so crazy, but that's part of it I guess!

I have started the nursing program and have only been doing it for one month and it is kicking my butt! But it will be so great once I have completed the nursing program.

Nothing too exciting happening my life expect I am getting a new puppy on July 2nd. He is half yorki poo & shih tzu and his name is going to be Frankenstein (Frankie for short)! I am super excited! I can't wait to get him! Oh yeah that's him! He is cute huh? He will be 8 weeks when I get him!

That's about it and just going to school and working of course, just staying busy as usual!

Life has gone by too fast I can't keep up!

Peace out killers!!

Esmy

Hey Xanga...

What is up? It's been a while, I know and I am sorry for that!

Feb 7-10...was Master's Commission Conference in Phoenix, AZ...I learn something new every time I get the chance to go. I love it!!! I get so refreshed & get to see some awesome peeps that are still there or gonna be there for a while or meet someone new...

Fe 14th....of course Valentine's Day...don't have a valentine yet...not in a hurry though, still pretty happy being single...Valentine's day is over rated anyways...if you love someone...you should show them everyday how much you love them, not just once a year...anyhoo...i will get off my soap box...well, that was interesting day for me...my grandpa (my mom's dad) passed away...the day of love and you lose someone you LOVE ...it was hard for me to focus...b/c that little thing kept running through my mind ("the day of love & you lose someone you LOVE"), then it hit me...ya know my soap box i was just one...well i wish i could have told him just a few more times how much i loved him...that saying always comes to my mind..."You don't know what you have till it's gone." My grandpa is one of those people I thought was going to be alive "FOREVER", does anyone have someone like that? I just couldn't imagine my life without his warm smile and huge heart!!! i miss him so much already...so my mom is one of 12 kids...so think how many grandkids and cousins and aunts and uncles, great grandkids & great great grandkids and friends there were at this funeral...oh my goodness...TOO MANY!!!! it seemed every where i turned, there was another person i was related to & i hadn't ever met them before...if this means anything my grandpa had 7 great great grandkids...i won't go into details with anything else...but WOW!!! i think the thing that is crazy is that he can call all my cousins by name, which i think we counted 67 grandkids (or something like that)...he would have been 90 on the 25th..

I guess I want to dedicate this Xanga entry to my grandpa...Thanks for being an amazing man...Thanks for loving all of us even though there are like 15 bajilion of us..I just praise God b/c I know he is not suffering anymore, which he had been since for about 3 months now....Also, what makes me very excited about 3 days before he died my mom had some alone time with him (which is hard to do when everyone wants to see & visit him), but she was able to pray the sinner's prayer with...my grandpa grew up catholic his whole life & my mom said he was very alert & knew what he was doing & not just going through the motions!!! oh i think that's cool!!!

ok i am falling asleep while writing this...i will write more later!

xanga...thanks for listening! love all of ya'll!!

esmy

Howdy Xanga-Folk,

Well, I attended yet another funeral today...I understand everyone is destined to die...but I am sick of being people I know...Jay Ewing...a very amazing man of God. I don't have much to say about him, but I just admired him for his life. He had such an amazing walk with the Lord. It just make me want to better with God.

Today is the 6th and I get to hang with old buddies of mine..Erica & Dathan & their new baby...Sean. I am so pumped I haven't seen them in over 2 years or so...They are married now & have a kid...crazy...

Anyhoo...I know it's late, I dog tired and I have 2 test on Thursday...and I had one on Tuesday. I have another next Tuesday. I just a tad bit stressed. I don't do very well my test anxiety....

19 Days till Christmas and 18 till my b-day (i'm getting old folks)

sleep tight!